In What UNIVERSE Is ‘NOW’ Better?

20 YEARS AGO…

I woke up. Depending on the time and my parents’ mood, I was either pampered or spanked to the bathroom. My school bag was prepared. Dad dropped me off at the bus stop and waited till I boarded the bus and took my seat. I carried a heavy school bag. I sat through boring classes. I had the option of an open window and fresh breezes during boring classes. I fought off sleep in the afternoon. I carried my lunch. My school had 2 breaks, one for 15 minutes when we ate our lunch, another for an hour when we played our socks off. I came home by 4 p.m. I got to play in the evenings until even the players, forget the ball, were invisible. Homework was easy. Pocket money was ‘on-demand’. Financial freedom and independance didn’t exist, and I couldn’t care less. Weekends were crazy.

TODAY…

I am woken up by concerned voices about how late I’m going to be for office. I drag myself to the bathroom. If someone is available, I get a drop-off to the cab pick up point, or I haul my ass off there by myself. I carry a heavy bag. The books have been replaced by a laptop and a diary. I sit through boring meetings. I sit in a cozy, centrally air conditioned office, with no open windows or a hint of fresh breezes. I fight off sleep in the afternoon. I carry my lunch. I get just one, 1 hour break. Office is for 9 hours, and I have to log my time spent in it. I have to be on call, on demand. I come home by nightfall. There are no friends I get to meet after office. I have to haul my ass back to home with that heavy laptop on my back. I’m my own ATM. Financial independance is comforting, but scary if you look at the future. Weekends are fleeting.

I cannot crib. I’ve chosen this life. Makes me wonder though, the first 15 minutes of ‘The Gods Must Be Crazy’ were probably the truest appraisal of the human race.

 

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Cup’s Home.

Back after a wild party on the street. No one knows anybody else out there, but everyone is everybody else’s best friend tonight. The one thing that binds this country together, has also brought us our biggest joy in recent years, and the biggest festival of any of the numerous religions followed here. But then again, if one has to look closely, it will be clear that the real religion is, cliched as it might sound right now, CRICKET.

We are a country that is pulled apart by ideologies that are in stark contrast to each other. We are a nation where everyone is looking in a different direction, of their own choosing or ignorance, and lack a leader who can point out the right direction and make everyone look there. But come match day, everyone is a follower of cricket. Race doesn’t matter, religion is forgotten, social class is banished, gender is ignored, all that remains is the pure, unadulterated love for the game. And tonight, that love for the game has reached it’s crescendo.

2003 was a heartbreak. 2007 was a shame. What followed was a painful rebuilding exercise. Stung by a divisive coach who ended up ruining the careers of two of the finest players of our generation, we knew this was not the way to build a world conquering team. We got a young, unknown face to replace a veteran as the captain – wicketkeeper. A mild mannered South African took on the stressful job of the coach. We found talent from the under 19 team, and also began grooming the youngsters from the regional sides. Somewhere on the strategy boards of the dressing rooms, a team was taking shape.

In the meantime, we started winning. And we started winning big. The Australians were ridiculed at their home, and only an apology of a match at Sydney meant we didn’t come up aces. But we crushed them at Perth. Other championship material teams were also ruthlessly taken care of. We became a force to be reckoned with. A team that had suddenly found its killer instinct. A team that had the brashness and ‘in-your-face’ attitude of the Australian team, but not their arrogance, and certainly not their foul mouths and dishonest ways.

More knowledgeable people than me will always maintain that the recently retired Australian captain was a true legend of his craft. I would politely, but strongly disagree. He had the privilege to lead stalwarts, absolute masters of their trade, against sides that were in awe of the sheer mountain of skill and talent that was facing them. He himself was always a top notch batsman, but nowhere near to the gentleman in the ‘Gentleman’s Game’. The truth is he was handed a champion team by his legendary predecessor, and also received tutelage from the master. Whereas our captain worked from the ground up. He actually built a group of players that could be depended on to perform on international stages. Players that had nerves, and could hold on to them, even to the very last one. He put on an icy cool exterior that was never confused, never flummoxed, never worried, never angry, even if the world around him was falling to pieces. That personification of composure was what gave his troops the confidence to pull out victories out of hopeless situation, something our team was not known to do. If history should ever judge the greats who toiled as captains, I daresay it will stand on a desk, and call out to the Indian team captain as ‘O Captain! My Captain!’

Through all this, one player, who had crossed every line, every statistic, every hurdle had carried on with the dogged determination of a mountaineer on a mission to conquer mount Everest. He was not playing for himself, for that would be too easy. He carried on his shoulders the expectations of an entire nation. In a nation  that  treats its favourite game as a religion, its favourite son was its God. Considered in a class of his own, even by his own equals, he was slowly finding a new level of performance, even at this late stage in his long walk. The early part of the new millennium was not very kind to him, and there was a repeated speculation about his eminent retirement. He never found it necessary to reply back. His own famous words after a match winning effort succinctly summed up his attitude towards everything – ‘When someone throws stones at you, you convert them into milestones.’  He found his second wind, and he just blew everyone away.

It’s 4 am on April 3rd, 2011. The feeling hasn’t sunk in. I was on the street and it was mayhem, chaos, insane. But none of it was disturbing. It all felt right. It all felt natural. I shouted slogans and hooted so loud I must have torn my windpipe. I bled blue, needless to say, but such was the intensity that it must have healed by itself. In any case, I was too busy reveling to notice it. If any country has malicious designs on my country, just look at the celebrations today. This is the united India. We are an unstoppable force when we charge. We are an immovable object when we shield.

In a nation besieged by corruption, social inequality, religious divide and political opportunism, there is one game that rules us all, one game that binds us . One game that makes Gods out of mortals, and followers out of fans.  One game that makes a nation realize that we PROUDLY bleed the same blood, red or blue. One game that makes us insane, makes us laugh and makes us cry. One game, that makes us dream, and lets us live them.

For what are we, if we can’t dream, or live them?

 

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Signs

A lot of Hollywood movies and novels talk about signs from God. You know, a certain event happens, an act or a moment of mysterious origins, and it’s interpreted as a sign that certain things need to be done, or actions need to be taken. I’m baffled. Does God really give us signs? I’m sure His intentions are that of a caring parent looking out for His (please read all the ‘His’ or ‘He’ as ‘His/Her’ or ‘He/She’) stumbling toddler. He wants us to get back on the right track whenever we stray away from it. It’s His way of saying, ” Look I don’t mind you going down that road, but don’t you think this road is wonderful as well? Why don’t you try this road? I bet you’ll reach your destination this way too.” He doesn’t pick us up forcefully and put us on the way HE feels is the best for us. Free Will at work. So we all see signs every now and then, it’s just that we don’t know what to make out of them, and how to interpret them. And God being God, just sighs and says, “Ok! now that you’ve made this choice, let me see how I can help you in the hard times that await you.” And when the situation goes beyond salvage? Well, there is a name on every bullet of His.

But what if the signs are conflicting? Well if not the signs, their interpretations, at least? I mean you don’t expect God to tell you how to interpret the sign as well, do you? It’d be much easier to just explain what He needs us to do, and the consequences of not doing it, and the rewards of doing it. So my point is, how do I know if I’m interpreting a sign correctly or not? Based on my interpretation, I will set sail down a current, and I sure don’t want to end on the edge of the Niagara falls with my sails torn and no backup engines.

Does this mean I have to listen to that God gifted pump that throbs in my left chest called the Heart? I’m not sure I can do that either, because to me the heart is not capable of thinking rationally. It’s more of a warning flag that starts thumping faster if you know what you’re doing is not what is supposed to be done. I don’t agree with people who say that you got to think with you heart. Thinking should be rational, clear and without any emotional bias, which I confess is the hardest task in the entire human existence, but then thats the way it should be. Its perhaps why Sherlock Holmes and Batman don’t really exist. So coming back to the point, how do I know if my interpretations are right or wrong?

There is no answer to this. The best way I can attempt to explain this is ultimately, after thinking things through, you will have to take a decision. How I take that decision is what will determine my future. There is a lot of thinking and intuition involved in this and you have that pump of yours to guide you.

The reason I’m being so verbose is that When I practiced the acid test, I got many conflicting signs and everything was so fuzzy I couldn’t rely on any one sign completely. I was crazy for a long time then, finding out ways to get out of that bog I’d fallen into. Every time I beat around with my hands and legs, I was sucked deeper into it.

I’m still stuck.

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Of God, e-mails, and destiny…

Got another one of those send-this-to-‘n’-people-in-‘t’-time-or-else mails and left me wondering for a moment. All the things in life that I couldn’t achieve, all that I’ve lost, all the bad luck that happened to me, was it because I never forwarded a simple email to the required number of people (or even worse, delete it) ? On the flip side, whatever I achieved, the good things that happened to me and my successes and accomplishments, were NOT a result of my hard work, my skills and talents and the faith of people in me?

Since when did God invade cyberspace? And more importantly, why did He feel the need to do so? I bet He has some inferiority complex that we spend more time online than thinking about Him. Come to think of it, that’s actually a nice way of promoting yourself, especially when you are ‘Omnipresent and Benevolent’!!! So the best way that you can call for attention is by instilling fear in people’s minds. That’s the way terrorists operate, by the way…

I believe God is too nonchalant to restore to such tactics to interfere in our lives and play with our destiny. And He has much more potent tools to make us bend to his wishes. He never does that. He wishes us to think for ourselves, what is good or bad, right or wrong, moral or immoral. And once we’ve decided that, He just says ‘Tathastu’. That’s the concept of ‘free will’. And I believe God never created us so that He could always appraise our performance, give us a bonus when we were good and cast a spell of bad luck and ill fortune when we weren’t his favourite. Because believe me, He HAS no favourites and He never thought about wasting time defining ‘Good’, ‘Bad’, ‘Right’ , ‘Wrong’ etc. That would make the world so procedural, to say the least. And all the scriptures that talk about God were written by us, so they can hardly be said to be the last word on the subject, because I doubt that when it comes to the subject of God, no one and everyone is an authority.

I believe in Destiny. I believe that whatever choices I make, the decisions I take, brings me closer to achieving what I was set out to do. It was decided that I will reach some ultimate destination in life, before I was even born. I don’t know as of now what that destination is, and this is what makes me apply my knowledge, experience, awareness and intuition to decide and choose. In it lies my justification of being human. I don’t think deleting or forwarding emails is going to help me much.

Had I the ability to predict the future, fulfilling my destiny would have been the most mundane of tasks.

So that brings us back to the subject of these email forwards. Even after writing all these philosophical things, rest assured I won’t delete that email 😀 !!! I won’t forward it to others for sure, but I won’t delete it either.

All said and done, people probably forward such emails hoping for miracles to happen in their lives, and miracles have a tendency to occur at places where there is a high degree of hope. And besides, whatever be the instrument or vehicle, what is being spread is hope and faith and God.

I’d be the devil’s agent if I stopped this from happening.

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